There is nothing-no circumstance, no trouble, no-testing that can ever touch me until, first of all it has gone past God and past Christ right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a GREAT PURPOSE, which I may not understand at the moment. As I refuse to become panicky, as I lift my eyes up to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow will ever disturb me, no trial will ever disarm me, no circumstance will ever cause me to fret-for I shall rest in the joy of what my Lord is- that is the rest of VICTORY!!!!
Friday, October 21, 2011
Just one of those days.....
One of the more difficult days for me this past week was Wednesday. It was raining like crazy (again), I was having some computer issues, I stepped in dog you know what in my favorite pair of tennis shoes, spilled a little glass of milk all over my dresser in between the drawers, I just felt blah and was having one of those days where I just felt like I couldnt catch a break. Do you know what I'm talking about? A day where you try to push forward and be optimistic and positive throughout the day but then the next thing you know you have dropped your favorite glass plate, dinner was nasty, another bill comes rolling in the mail, your late to an important appointment, communication between you and your spouse is just off, your kids aren't listening, the dog is even riding that last never you feel like you have in your entire body and seperately you can deal with it but all together you just feel like you want to hide in a corner and scream? That was my Wednesday as well as Scotts and Macies, so it was triple blah for our house that day.
I have shared this story on fb and with a few of my friends but Wednesday after I stepped in the dog stuff and got drenched by rain walking to get Macie from school her and I were talking about how her day was and the events of her day at school. Throughout the conversation I learned that one of the little boys in her class that she often talks about and seems to really like was upset with her. I started asking her why he was mad at her and the details were scarce and really she wasnt real sure of why. The more we talked the more information I got from the story and by putting the pieces together I learned that she was showing him something, or making a motion for something and happened to use her middle finger and he interpreted it as her flipping him off. The boy told the teacher on Macie and she didnt get in trouble but she was just so confused about the whole situation. We don't use gestures like that in our house or use curse words so I explained to Macie what using that gesture can mean and how it can be used for bad things. During my explanation a wave of disbelief and sadness rolled over Macies little face and she started sobbing uncontrolably. It broke my heart because I realized in that moment that a piece of her innocense was lost. She was clueless that it ever meant anything bad and the guilt she felt because of what it meant and the thought that her friend interpreted as her making such a negative nasty gesture towards him really broke her heart. The situation turned out ok but it just really bothered me.
It was a moment as a parent that I realized how harsh this world can be sometimes and how much it can completely take the wind out of our sails. This is a new journey for Macie and for Scott and I and life can be tough, there are going to be times where the world will throw things our way to try and break our spirits and tear us down. It was a reminder to me that even as adults at how difficult life can be for us and and how there are things even still for us that can really take us by suprise. Satan will try and use 20 little disasters thrughout a day to work on our hearts and bring us down. Wednesday was difficult for us but that evening having Scott and I at praise band practice together with Macie sitting there hanging out with us after picking her up from Caravan (kids Weds night church) I just felt a sense of relief and peace because regardless of how yucky that day was God was still who He says He is, He was still powerful and mighty and loving and compassionate and singing and worshiping during practice I thought "ha ha Satan you still havent won, YOU WILL NOT BREAK OUR SPIRITS and YOU WILL NOT GET IN THE WAY OF WHAT GOD IS DOING!!!!!!" Thank You Jesus that even when we have terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days, God has still won and His mercies are new each day!
Just remember when your having one of "those days" that God is still good and everything may be going wrong that could possibly go wrong but thats what Satan wants, he wants to use those little disasters to pick and pick and pick at you until your focus is shifted from the goodness of Christ. Call upon the name of Jesus in those moments and hand the battle physically and emotionally over to Him. Allow Him to fight the fight and to have the victory against the enemy. Declare to the world that "I may stumble but I will not be broken, you have not one ounce of my strength, my joy, and part of my life Satan and I cast you out in the name of Jesus and declare that my God will still have the ultimate victory.