Ugh, I'm so over this funk I have been in for awhile. I feel like a puppet merely going through the motions everyday instead of my heart bursting with excitement and overflowing through in everything I do. There is no character in my dance everyday through life its so choreographed and impersonal lately. I know I'm not alone by the numerous posts on Facebook I have seen lately. There seems to be a funk virus spreading rapidly right now in the lives of so many people. Its not a depression and a pure dread for life I'm talking about but almost like the spark that so many people use as their drive and motivation and zest for life has a short.
I have said so many times and even posted on my blog that its supposed to be the most joyous and happy time of the year with Christmas and New Years and that I was going to get my rear in gear and be joyful but then I find myself sliding right back in this hole of funk. I was nervous about writing this post actually because for a moment I thought "wow they are gonna realize how ordinary I am and how much I struggle daily with the things of this world like everyone else." My joy and strength is in Jesus but I will be the first person to admit that I am not superhuman and each day is a struggle for me just like anyone else. I came to the conclusion this morning that possibly the root of my funk is alot of little things added up that have happened around me and we have been through lately that can just wear on you. The more life I live the more I realize one of the biggest battles is with our minds and how much of an impact thoughts and attitudes can really play into how we feel and our motivation each day. If there's negative situation after negative situation around you then you are going to get into the attitude of negativity. If you are surrounded by positive and happy things then you will find yourself having an attitude of praise more and more. With witnessing alot of tough stuff with friends around us and Macie and I being sick this Christmas it was easy to get into the negative yuck mode. I don't feel like I am in a "I hate life, I hate everything around me, this stinks, blah blah blah.....mode." But rather a quiet phase where although I'm not being negative, I'm definitely not going out of my way to be positive and try to change my thought process either.
The Lord convicted me of this today and reminded me that who am I to only praise Him in the good and forget even in the blah that He is still awesome? There is a quote I heard from Beth Moore last week and it says this "sometimes we have to praise now and feel it later." How awesome is that?!! Sometimes life isn't going to "feel" the best but even then we need to glorify the Lord because He is still good. Even when the future is unknown or life is handing you a difficult hand to play we need to still praise Him. Not because of our circumstances but because of His faithfulness, goodness, and power that has always sustained us and will continue to be with us. I guess this is all just to first confess that I am human also and I hope someone else can relate to this post today and realize that they aren't alone and that although we have allowed ourselves to get into this funk the beauty is that we can choose to get out and no longer stay in it. I encourage you today that if your dealing with the funk virus yourself to decide from this moment on that you will surround yourself with positive thoughts and actions and ask for the Lord to help you in those moments when you start getting back into the negativity pit that He would convict and help you to change it. Satan would love to have power and to keep the spark from our lives everyday but because of Jesus the victory has already been won and we don't have to stay in that pit any longer. Praise now and feel it later, thank you Jesus!!!