"You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same, You are amazing." God even in the midst of my raw, messy, discouraged and painful thoughts You still wrap me up up in Your tender arms and love on me with pride and adoration because I am Your beloved." When there are no answers to the questions and my strength has run out You still search the depths of my being and uncover the places that I have hidden from the world and only the salve of your tender mercies can heal.
There are moments in life where you "praise now and feel it later. What I mean is that you are so broken and confused that not one ounce of you wants to praise, you don't love your circumstances or understand them but what you praise is not the place your in but instead the God who will sustain you through them. Right now I am exhausted, discouraged, and frustrated just to name a few. There are emotions I am feeling that I can't even label but I know I am loved by a God who can. In the moments where I can't even wrap my mind around what I'm feeling He searches my heart and soothes those wounded places. Today a friend shared this amazing quote with me that reminded of how much God knows my heart and emotions. He is not surprised nor caught off guard by them but instead has prepared for them by sending His Son Jesus to die on the cross for every thought and feeling, good or bad that I have ever had and will have.