More....

Each step brings a different awareness. One second your in agony and you think at the end of all human capability and strength. Then something deep inside thirsts for more, that thirst is so intense that the same cycle you have been in leaves you dissatisfied, unquenched. That thirst can remain or motivate you to seek higher levels of satisfaction. It gets boring staying the same, we realize in the monotony that we always were meant for more. There's always greatness to obtain in this life, there's always more beyond this moment and when that next milestone is achieved we push even more, we never give up and stay the same. This morning the thirst grew unquenchable, I longed for more. I prayed for my heart to be still but my god said "I have more for you!l so I pushed harder than before, I walked faster for awhile until He sparked a motivation deep inside I never believed I had in myself anymore and I started running..... I didn't run for long today but tomorrow is another story. It's gonna be hard for awhile just as walking was but I refuse to give up and I refuse to settle for anything but greatness because that's who God says I am. So tomorrow i will walk and then slowly run, for how long I don't know, but I will move forward either way.

The Great UNKNOWN

"You call me out upon the waters, the great UNKNOWN my feet may fail, and there I find YOU in the mystery in oceans deep, my FAITH WILL STAND!"

I started a journey two weeks ago, an UNKNOWN journey. Each step brings a different emotion and each emotion a deeper grasp of FAITH. I have cried, laughed, begged, pleaded, bartered, and traded the groaning of my guilt ridden heart for a badge of GRACE and FREEDOM. It hasn't been easy but in my weakest moments I have found Gods strength. As I sat in a pit of despair He whispered gently in my ear that I have been restored and He has washed away my iniquities. You see He didn't always carry me but I had to intentionally reach out through the mud and mess of my life and in my brokenness surrender and He has walked beside me each painful moment to victory.

It's a work in progress but what I have discovered along the way is a hunger and passion to know my HEALER and not just long for my HEALING.

"I will call upon YOUR name keep my eyes above the waves when oceans rise, my soul will REST in YOUR embrace, for I am YOURS and you are mine!"