So tonight The Cameron Family competed in the
pinewood Derby Competition at Church. After daddy and Macie spent time painting
it yesterday, today Mommy and Macie added our diva flair ;) Accustomed with
bling, “Macie” mod podge across the top and a peacock feather at the end it
looked sweet!!! After time spent in daddy’s auto body garage and mommies
decorating den we were ready to go. I would love to tell you we took home the
gold but unfortunately our car was having an off week and was by far the
slowest car throughout the whole event.
Macie was having
a great time cheering all the kids on and being encouraged by them as well,
there was popcorn and a great time to chat with friends and let the kiddos
doing something cool and different. Towards the middle of the race though Mr.
Competitive daddy started getting a little antsy and tried to make a few
adjustments on her car to make it go faster. I know he meant well and was just
trying to be the jump in and fix things dad but for me it was a sit back and
watch moment.
It was a moment that I was reminded we are all on
this race. It’s a process and unlike the kid with the scale at the registration
table weighing the cars to make sure they weren’t too heavy in life that weight
and baggage is still there. Some may look all decorated and like they have it
all together, some may be ambitious and focused and some may be lagging behind
but regardless they are doing it. Lately I have felt like Macie’s poor Derby
Car tonight, I give it all I got and somehow I keep falling behind. The lesson
tonight for Macie wasn’t in winning it was about working together as a team to
build the car, cheering on your friends and completing the race. This motivated
me tonight that regardless of what place I am at on my journey I will never
give up and I will never throw in the towel. If I had to answer as honestly as
I possibly could what I think about my circumstances right now I would surely
say “it stinks” but because I believe in the blood of Jesus and I believe in a
God who sent His only son to die on the cross for my brokenness, sins, hurts, fears
and sickness I will lay this battle at His feet and proclaim by His blood
healing because I know He works all things together for my good.
As a mother my deepest desire is for Macie to know
how precious she is. I want her to always feel beautiful and to be strong and
courageous through whatever comes her way. When this whole journey began 2
years ago I was very sick and it was enough for me to get through a day without
crying countless times a day, I felt inadequate, physically ill, and just done
and I will never forget a moment a moment walking up the steps with Macie and
halfway up I just got so exhausted and had to stop and of course started crying
I looked down at her innocent face and
said “I’m so sorry Macie” without even a pause she says “its ok mommy I know
your doing the best you can.” I told Scott tonight though all the health
battles and missed things I couldn’t do with her I just want her to know what
it means to hold tight to the Lord and fight with everything in you. To never
give up but always keep running the race He has set before you…..Thats what I
want to show my Macie, perseverance
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